Jedi cancelled his promise with Abbie. He promised my little sister, that he'll take her to watch Finding Nemo, but when I called him this morning, he said he cant coz he's busy. I felt so dissapointed with him, this time, he didnt make a promise to me, he made a promise to a little girl that hopes a lot on these kind of things. Poor Abbie, when she asked me about it, I couldnt say a thing, so I just said that when Jedi told her a promise, he will intent to keep one. Did I lie? No, I'm just speaking out the truth and refuse to see the facts.

When I called him, I ended it by rudely hang up the phone. Then I felt to terrible, and went to called him back. But the line was busy, and I couldnt get through. So I just left him a message on his inbox, apologizing, hopefully when he check it, he'll read mine.

It's still half of the day, and already mindful thnigs had occupied my mind. It's trying to pulling me down, and I'm declaring to myself that I wont be controled by it. That I will shake it off my mind. I just refuse to stay down. It's painful enough to be put down by your own feelings and mind.

So, I guess I wont be seeing Jedi for a couple of days, till Monday. Maybe I wont hear his news too. It's not a hard thing for him now, to leave me without any news. Maybe he doesnt think that I need that kind of treatment anymore.

Whatever!!!



Maybe if I drink this milk, I'll be able to shake things off my mind, and my back!! LOL